Tuesday, 18 January 2011

For Now

Please excuse my somewhat whingey post ref. Valentine's Day and my recent 'get me the flock out of here' post. It's been a strange start to 2011. Taking Baby Boo back to school after 3 glorious weeks having her home damn near broke my heart. I'm bereft without her. She takes my heart with her every time she goes. She's at boarding school for those of you that don't know. A life of travelling here there and everywhere with me and the Army has meant that before she reached the age of 10 she had been to 6 schools. She's such a bright little button that messing with her education really seemed unfair. She had also reached the age where leaving her 'bestest ever friends' every two years was soul destroying for her. As a result, Baby Boo and I made the very difficult decision  to send her away to school. Did I do the right thing? For her, YES! She loves it. She has new best friends that will stay best friends all through her school years, she goes horse riding on the beach every Saturday, goes to Karate lessons, singing lessons, craft club, history club and the private education she is getting is second to none. She is blossoming. Something I am so so so proud of. Unfortunately, for me, this is the worst thing I could have done. I miss her so much. She's my little partner in crime and, since the day she was born, it's been me and her against the world. Without my Baby Boo around the house is too quiet and I have no one to giggle with. This, coupled with an awful row with my sister last week that is still not resolved and then returning to Germany alone has left me feeling rather sad and blue. I'm also not happy with this blog. I don't think it's properly representing me and it's not what I imagined when I first started writing. I'm a bit of a perfectionist and get so frustrated when things aren't exactly how I want them to be. For this reason I'm going to stop writing for now. Thank you to those that have followed, commented and read. I appreciate it, I really do. I wish you all the best for 2011 and, hopefully, I'll be back later on in the year when I'm feeling a bit more positive and can safely type posts without worrying that I may drag someone else down with me. Auf Wiedersehn, pets.


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Love, hugs and a sniffle or two


Loola xxx

3 comments:

Faye said...

Hey Lou,

Only just found your Valentines post, which is AWESOME! Hope you're feeling better soon xxx

The Blogger Formerly Known As said...

You will be sorely missed in your absence, Lou. Completely understandable though. Hope you feel a lot better very soon xxx

Tania said...

I can't begin to imagine how ghastly the school good byes must be. Oh, I feel for you. But I do think you should go waaaay easier on yourself on the blog bizzo. I reckon honest posts are always the most poignant and in my experience bloggy types can be a heck of a support.

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